The Way I See It...

The way I see it, dreams are what we wish our lives were. What we dream about reflects the things we want our lives to be... At least, that’s how it is for me. When I drift into sleep, my life becomes perfect. It becomes everything I wish it was during the day. It’s everything I think about. So, does that make my dreams good or bad..? 

The way I see it, looking at the big picture is how everyone should see life. ESPECIALLY kids in high-school. 

The way I see it, this world is a sick place.

The way I see it, this world is an incredibly beautiful place...

The way I see it, teenagers take relationships and gossip and ‘who likes who’ WAY too freaking seriously. 

The way I see it, Hershey’s chocolate should not exist, and everything should be made of Lindt chocolate. 

The way I see it, Disney channel should not exist either!

The way I see it, people who are actually good at singing should be famous. It seems like it’s always a ‘who can be the weirdest’ contest to determine who gets to be a celebrity. 

The way I see it, the piano was the greatest thing ever invented. 

The way I see it, once you’ve found the right person it’s really easy to tell that they’re the one.

The way I see it, horses are like 5 year olds. It’s hilarious.

Little Things That Give Me Joy.

Watching little kids play

When people look me directly in the eye while speaking to me

79 degrees outside on a spring day

Sunsets

Soft grass

Cats sitting on my lap

The perfect outfit that makes you feel beautiful

A perfect hair day

Looking at the scenery in St. George

Watching kids use their imagination

Finding the perfect song

Singing one note, just ONE note,  p e r f e c t l y .

Warm sand in my toes

Cold snowflakes on my face

Warm rain on my body

One perfect kiss

Being held close, so I know i’m loved

An empty room with a piano, waiting for me to play it

Watching a mother with her new baby

Seeing a new little family, husband and wife, spending time with their little kids

Little kids movies!!

The perfect chap-stick

Coming to school and seeing a beautiful sunrise to start out my day

My nephew when he’s really excited to see me. Nothing makes me feel more special than when someone’s excited to see me.

Silver nail-polish (because i’m not crazy enough to wear a color..)

Just having time alone in my house, because 99% of the time my house is full of people

When the people I love are happy. Truly happy.

Facts About Me..? I feel self-centered xD

I can be very shy and quiet.

I can be a loud psycho that drives everyone insane...

I hate cafe rio.

I love bright colors, yet I always find myself wearing grey...

I am a terrible artist,

but i’m an awesome singer... and it’s taken me 10 years to admit that.

I’ve been singing my whole life.

My life revolves around music and singing.

Did I mention I love to sing?

I am a terrible cook.

I have never worn a pair of shorts that go above my knee outside my room.

I have never broken a bone.

I have never had stitches

I’ve never had to go to the hospital for anything.

I am TERRIFIED of the hospital.

One of my most prized possessions is my scriptures.

My other most prized possessions are my notebooks.

I can count on my hand how many hours of video games I have played in my life (unless you count guitar hero... Everybody has a guitar hero phase)

I am one of those cheesy people that believes in love at first sight, because i’ve seen it happen.

I tan REALLY easily.

I can hold my breath for kind of a long time since i’m a singer...

I HATE TWILIGHT. My sister begged me to read it for a year and I finally did to get her to shut up, and it was the worst book I have ever read. 

I’m obsessed with Italian food.

I collect plastic horses... :D

I hate sports. Except hockey.

14 is my lucky number.

I once got a gutter ball while bowling... With the bumpers up. And the ball didn’t even touch the bumpers. Makes you think huh?

In my entire life, my family has owned somewhere over 30 different cats, 2 dogs, 3 rabbits, and 8 or so horses.

I don’t think i’ve ever gone a day without singing.

I have 12 people in my immediate family.

And lastly, my favorite things in the world are the chocolate cake from La Vigna's, standing in the snow by myself in the dead silence, hanging out with my sisters, playing my mini grand when there's no one in the house which is rare, singing at the top of my lungs when it actually sounds good, finding lyrics to songs that are AMAZING, having long, deep talks with people that last hours, and finding scriptures that just make you go WOW. THATS AWESOME.

The end.

My Bucket List...

Stay up all night and look at the stars
Watch the sun rise in st. george
Got to 3 or more Josh Groban Concerts
Go to a Paramore concert
Splatter paint a white grand piano
Make a pot on a pottery wheel
Kiss a dolphin
Pet a goat
Ride an elephant
Hold an owl on my arm
Hold a raven on my arm
Learn enough ASL to have a basic conversation
Pull an all-nighter
Taste pillsbury toaster strudel
Ride my horse on a beach
Walk on top of a plateau in st. george
See the grand canyon
Milk a cow
Attempt to surf
Go to Daylight Donuts at 5am
Go zip-lining in Hawaii
Fulfill everything on my bucket list

(Red=done it!)

Song Stories....

The Luckiest by Ben Folds
Plot: Ben folds is trying to tell his girl how much he loves her, and he is telling different stories about different characters, trying to describe his love for her.
Character(s): Ben folds and his wife ^_^ aww...
Conflict: As cheesy as it sounds, the conflict is that he can't find the best way to describe how much he loves his girl... He keeps trying to give different scenarios and stories to describe how he loves her, but It's hard for him.
Theme: Love... duh.
Setting: On a house, on a street, in a quiet, not-too-crowded town.

Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie
Plot: It starts out with "The atlantic was born today, and i'll tell you how..." It's talking about how water filled every hole, and then it says that he's trying to get closer to the one he loves, but the water filled up the paths and washed them away. Then it keeps saying, "I need you so much closer." Because he wants her closer, so he can get to where she is easier.
Character(s): The main guy singing and telling the story, all the people in the world, and the one he's trying to get to.
Conflict: He wants to get to where she is, but he can't because the water washed away his path. Though the water is a good and beautiful thing, it is also restricting him from getting where he needs to go. It's too far away to swim through...
Theme: Beauty and restriction
Setting: It sounds dumb but, the earth really. The whole earth, or at least the section covered in the Atlantic ocean specifically...

Jealousy.

I am jealous of the poem "Song of the little cripple at the street corner" by Rainer Maria Rilke

When I first read it all I could think about was how
SAD
it is!!
It's very depressing...

But at the same time,
inspiring.

It's obviously talking about a cripple, and his poor frail body being bent and twisted...
But when I read this, I like to switch up the words 'body' and 'soul'.
Whenever it says 'soul', I switch it with 'body' and vise-versa.
When you do this, you can relate this poem to anybody.

We are all crippled in some way, some more than others. Our souls struggle to survive at times.
Sometimes our hearts are like poor little wet toads after a rainstorm... Hopping around, trying to become normal again. Trying to go back to every day life.

All of us have a part of us that is weak, that we struggle to live with... Sometimes it's physical, sometimes it's emotional, sometimes it's mental.

I love this poem because it depicts that. It isn't just bluntly talking about a cripple on a street corner. It's talking about all of us. It can relate to all of us. It speaks the words we struggle to find to describe ourselves.

That's why I like this poem.

Why I Sing.

written March 8, 2011

I sing because the music was built and created inside of me. I was made to sing. I sing because, to create such a magnificent sound that can move people is a sound worth making. I sing because it fills me up. Because it takes me into a place that nothing or nobody else can take me to. I sing because it fills my soul with beauty and feeling and love. It makes my head spin until i’m dizzy, and my heart beat at incredible speeds. I sing because it makes my knees weak, and my mouth as dry as a desert from being so nervous. My breathe becomes short, and my body is covered in chills. I sing because despite all that, the moment I step on stage and open my mouth, everything falls into place. My soul and my heart are calm and peaceful. My body stands tall and strong and steady, ready to take on any piece of music. My breathe becomes slow and calm, deep and open. Perfect for my song. And the chills on my body slowly fade away, as the heat of the spotlight fills me up from bottom to top. I sing for that feeling.

But most of all, I sing for the end of the song. Why, you ask? Because at the end... That’s when I see what my music does to people. It fills their souls... it softens their hearts. And best of all, it brings a smile to their face. That’s what it’s all about, for me. Bringing joy to their hearts. And that’s when I feel the MOST successful. 

“True success is making other people happy.” - Charles M. Schulz